Monday, January 18, 2016

I have lost my hero, my superman, my beacon light


Tomorrow will be one week that my sweet precious Daddy took his last breath.  It doesn't seem like a week already with the funeral and everything else.  It seems like it was just a few hours ago.  I am not OK. I am not accepting this well and NO everything is NOT going to be OK.   This is all one big blur and I don't want to wake up and remember anything.   Last Sunday while at church, I bent over to grab phone out of purse to send text to Deb reminding her that Todd and I were coming over to visit Dad and her after church.  She had already sent me a text saying she was on way to hospital with Daddy.  Todd and I got there a little after noon.  He was in Emergency Room having tests done. He was in pain and his oxygen wasn't good.  That evening his lung doctor came in and said that there was no more they could do surgically or medically.  They could put him on a ventilator and have machine breathe for him ( imagine Christopher Reeves in wheelchair with oxygen) and he would never speak again.  Daddy refused any other options. He said he was tired of fighting and he was ready to go.  I was in the room when this was decided.  I felt like I was in a bubble looking down on someone elses discussion.   We started crying and saying goodbyes. My aunt Brenda was there and she called her daughter to bring my grandma Mimi up.  Any family that was out of state ( my aunt Tammy, her husband, her 2 sons, my stepbrother and stepsister) we put them on speaker phone to say their goodbyes. We thought it might be that night.  In meantime, all mentioned were booking flights and my stepbrother and stepsister managed to get there that evening on Sunday.  Aunt Tammy and Brad came in and got to see him on Monday.  Monday was a very rough day. Daddy was getting morphine shots to keep him comfortable but not on the morphine continuous drip yet.  That started later Monday evening.  The idea was just to keep him as comfortable as possible and or him to stay asleep and wake up in Heaven.  Monday night and all of Tuesday he no longer spoke.  Early Tuesday morning he could shake his head and indicate if he wanted water or need more meds.  I was getting a migraine. I had not left his side but a few hours every morning to go home and change.  Todd would come home to be with the our dogs and I stayed all nights at hospital. I didn't sleep at all. I would look out the windows and pray and hold Daddy's hand.  Todd would pick me up around 5 a m and take me home to shower and change.  Tuesday afternoon more of his friends were coming in to visit. Word was getting around.  We didn't deny anyone a chance to see him and say goodbye as long as they didn't try to wake him.  I stepped out of the room for about an hour and was in lounge talking with Todd and my cousins. I stood up to go to the bathroom and visit Daddy again. I missed being in the room if I was gone for too long.  AS I got out of the bathroom, my stepsister just said my name and I looked in her eyes. I ran down the hallway into his room.  My grandma, Deb and my aunts were all in there crying.  I kissed his head and his hands.   I grabbed my stuff and told Todd to take me home.  Someone had started playing music Amazing Grace by Chris Tomlin and it was just too much.  Yall know how much I love music and I like that song but not then- not immediately after Daddy took his last breath. 
Wednesday we spent the day at funeral home getting all the arrangements done.  We had to get the pictures and music together too.  On way home I was feeling really really bad and just thought it was a bad cold from crying so hard. I get upper respiratory infections though very easy so I asked Todd to make me an appointment for CareNow.  They will call you when they're ready and you can wait at home instead of at clinic.  I was there for 2.5 hours and I have pneumonia. I was running 102 fever and was delirious. I am so grateful for Todd. He drove, picked up prescriptions and never left my side.  Thursday was the rosary and memorial at the funeral home.  It was nice and people stood up and shared funny stories about Dad.  Lots of people came from all times of his life.
Friday was the funeral. It was at the catholic church that Deb attends and they got married at.   Once everyone is seated, the priest blesses the casket and says a prayer and we follow the coffin down the long aisle to our seats at front of altar.  It immediately dawned on me that the last time I walked down the aisle of a long way was with my Daddy as he gave me away at my wedding.  I cant shake this. I guess its really messing with my head. I walked with him to get married and 2 years later I walk with his coffin at his funeral.  
Afterwards we had the reception at his house at the farm. We had it catered with BBQ and we had tons of beer, wine and food. It was nice and its exactly what Daddy would have wanted.  And now we are here. Grasping to make sense of what just happened this last week.  I miss him so much I cant breathe. My life feels drastically different.  This was so unexpected.  Part of being a transplant patient is that you go in and out of hospital a lot for tests.  Practically routine. Daddy always comes home.
It doesn't seem real. 

His obit. I had an old picture in my pocket from digging through his pictures. We had to have one real quick to make the paper deadline and so we used this one.  Oh well!

Mark Schmitz went home to be with the Lord on January 12, 2016 surrounded by family and loved ones, our beloved husband, daddy, son, brother & Papa


Mark owned and operated Schmitz Carpet Care and Schmitz Industries until 2005 when he retired to his beloved High Meadow Arabian Farm Breeding and Boarding Facility wherein he remained actively involved.  His passions include horses, animals, antique cars, watching old westerns, motor cycles and spending time with his many ‘Best’ friends.  He will be most fondly remembered by his love of music, zeal for life and never failing sense of humor.  


Visitation will be Thursday, January 14, 2016 at DeBerry Funeral Directors, 2025 West University, Denton, TX 76201 from 6:00 to 8:00 with Rosary said at 7:00 pm.  A Funeral Mass will be held Friday, January 15, 2016 at 2:00 P.M. at St. Mark Catholic Church with Father George officiating.  
He is survived by his wife Deborah Schmitz, his mother Laveta Schmitz, his daughter Holli Myers and husband Todd, his daughter Rachelle Ines and husband Henry, his son Draeger Valencia and Susie, his grand children Paloma and Ava Ines, his sisters Brenda Davis and Tammy Buckman and husband Brent.  He is also survived by multiple nieces, nephews, great nieces and great nephews.
In lieu of flowers, donations may be made in Mark’s memory to St. Mark Catholic Church Building Fund, 6500 Crawford Rd., Denton TX 76226 or Transplant Service Center, UT Southwestern Medical Center, 5303 Harry Hines Blvd., Dallas, TX 75390-9074.  
He was loved beyond measure and will be missed by many.   Also, he was a ‘Howdja’  rockstar! https://youtu.be/VJCK_OttZxg

 



Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Winner of the battle-BOTB -Careless Whisper

Hey everyone- thanks so much for your stopping by and voting for this battle between Seether and Ben Folds and Rufus Wainwright.  The winner of the battle is Seether 7-3.  I still have never voted for any of my own battles but if I did , it also would have gone to Seether. I just really love their music and it was fun to include one of my favorite bands in a battle.   In my opinion, Ben Folds would have received more votes if he would have left Rufus out of that song.  I don't doubt that Rufus is a wonderful singer and performer but that exact live performance wasn't strong.

I'm pretty sure I've posted this song before but here's another Seether song that I like.  Words as Weapons:


I've hit the ground running at work. I was out all last week and now I have a few projects and training that have to be done this week and next few weeks. I love it! I love staying this busy and I love actually training classes.  The busy schedule keeps my in check and I don't have much time to cry.  If I do cry its usually in the car on way to work and maybe a few minutes now.  Yall that's an improvement.  I've had my 4th counseling session this week and I only have 2 left that are provided from EAP.  I can tell you that I am glad I made the call and scheduled these.  I've been with my company for 20 years and not once used EAP and didn't even know what it was.  I'm grateful to have resources when I finally realized and admitted I needed them.
I do believe that 2016 will be a better year for me.  Monday was a year that my sweet amazing stepdad passed away.  This time last year I was preparing for his funeral.  I miss him a lot! Its tough also with Daddy being sick again.  Ok I am not going there now sooooo have a great day.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Battle of the Bands- Careless whisper

Hey y'all!! Happy New Year.   I am 2 days late but I got here as soon as possible.  The Battle of the Bands are on the 1st and the 15th.  Hey, i'm here now so there.
My battle is with the song Careless Whisper originally performed by George Michaels when he was in the band Wham! The song was released in 1984 when I was just a sophomore in high school.  LOL!
 Here ya go:

Ok so now for the battle. It is between two very different versions completely. We all have different tastes so it will be interesting which one you choose. I think you'll know which one is my favorite from some of the songs I've posted lately. 

The first is a live version of Ben Folds and Rufus Wainwright.  Ben Folds had band called Ben Folds Five for many years until he went solo.  Rufus actually has recorded several tracks for films and movies and has appeared in a few movies as well.  Rufus does an amazing version of the popular song "hallelujah".   This performance was done in 2004 in NYC.


Next is performed by a rock n roll band Seether.  This was released and made the Billboards hot 100 in 2009. Seether is a South African band and did the cover originally as a joke but it backfired and ended up becoming pretty big for them.
 
 
Ok so listen to both and tell me which one you prefer.  I'm sure you've already been to the other battles but if not, go check them out.
 
  • Far Away Series 
  • Stephen T. McCarthy's Battle of the Bands Blog
  • Tossing it Out
  • DiscConnected (temporarily disconnected from BoTB)
  • Mike's Ramblings
  • Curious as a Cathy 
  • Book Lover
  • The Sound of One Hand Typing
  • dcrelief ~ Battle of the Bands 
  • Cherdo on the Flipside 
  • Angels Bark 
  • THE DOGLADY'S DEN 
  • Jingle Jangle Jungle 
  • Janie Junebug Righting and Editing
  • NovelBrews
  • J.A. Scott
  • Quiet Laughter
  • Holli's Hoots and Hollers 
  • beReInVintaged 

  • Tuesday, December 22, 2015

    Winner of the BOTB - more of Ziggy and Deftones

    Good morning y'all.  I am so grateful for the participation I had in last week's battle of the bands.  The battle was between the Deftones and Ziggy Marley doing cover song of Drive originally by The Cars.  The  winner is the Deftones with score 11 to 5.   I didn't vote , I normally never do on my battles but I really like the Deftones.   So I am happy with the outcome.  Ziggy Marley does some great songs though and I like his touch he adds to songs.

    I really like his Love is my religion

    One of my favorite Deftones song is old from 2003 but I just really connect to it.
    Its called Minerva: This version is the acoustic I found on youtube.


    Now to get in Christmas spirit- I don't think I've mentioned Christmas at all on my blog.  I'm not feeling it but i'm trying. I decorated a little bit but nothing like I normally do.  I didn't even put up my Grinch table that I've done for years and it gives me Joy but I just cant. Especially now that Christmas is this week.    Oh well.  One of my favorite Christmas songs is Drummer Boy with Bing Crosby and David Bowie.  I came across the parody of Will Ferrell being David Bowie and John C Reilly as Bing.  They actually sound really good and its so funny at the same time.   Have yall seen this?
     
    If I don't blog again this week which is most likely the case- Merry Christmas everyone and God Bless you and the New Year!!

    Tuesday, December 15, 2015

    BOTB - Drive

    Good morning y'all! Happy Tuesday to all of you.  It's that time again for the Battle of the Bands. I've missed the last 3 but I'm back today!! As always I feel the need to always start with my disclaimer , I have no doubt that my battle hasn't already been done .
    OK so the song I'm using today is Drive originally sung by The Cars. This single came off the album Heartbeat City in 1984.  The whole album is awesome.
    Here's the original :
    The Battle begins with a band called the Deftones.
    I think I may have posted them before a while ago but not in a battle. They're a band from California back in the late 80's. Their music is more alternative metal.  The lead singer is Chino and I like his voice.
    Here is their version :

    The next is the reggae version sung by Ziggy Marley. If you've ever seen the movie 50 First Dates, then you might have heard this song towards the end of movie.
    It's a different sound but I like it a lot!
    So here's this one:

    So the Battle is between Deftones or Ziggy. Which one do you like best?

    Go check out the others and vote on their battles.

    Thursday, December 10, 2015

    My newest favorite song of the week

    If we're friends on Facebook that you already know what I'm posting.  Are you familiar with the band Disturbed? They're most popular song is Down with the Sickness and that was a long time ago. Well they released their new album in August of this year. One of the tracks is a cover of Simon and Garfunkels song Sound of Silence. Y'all I can't get enough of this song!!! It's so dark,haunting ,chilling, powerful but still respectful to the original.
    I love it and hope y'all enjoy it too.

    Wednesday, December 9, 2015

    Meeting me in 3's

    Hey there,
    My friend Laura at We Really Got This (www.wereallygotthis.com) posted on her blog a fun idea. Its getting to know each other in Three’s.
    What the heck.  I welcome any idea on posts since my brain is not cooperating with me lately.

    THREE NAMES I GO BY
    1.       HolliAnn
    2.       Holli-girl
    3.       My bestie calls me Hollikins. Lol

    THREE PLACES I’VE LIVED
    1.       California
    2.       Florida
    3.       Texas

    THREE PLACES I HAVE WORKED
    1.       Wal-mart( my first job in high school)
    2.       Harley Davidson ( my fave job ever)
    3.       Hooters ( all through college and 2 years after)

    THREE THINGS I LOVE TO WATCH
    1.       Waves or water ripples ( I zone out when I’m at bodies of water)
    2.       Todd playing drums at church
    3.       Jax and Lila playing

    THREE PLACES I HAVE BEEN
    1.       Canada ( all over from Vancouver to Quebec)
    2.       Mexico ( Tijuana, Juarez, and Playa De Carmen)
    3.       New York City

    THREE THINGS I LOVE TO EAT
    1.       Mexican Food ( seriously I could eat tacos everyday)
    2.       Cheese
    3.       French fries

    THREE THINGS I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO
    1.       Having the week after Christmas off from work
    2.       Hopefully getting Mom in from Montana during February
    3.       My head and heart to be evened out

    You can reply in comments with your lists or you can do your own post but let me know so I can visit.

    Speaking of visiting, I have just down right sucked at visiting any of your blogs . I have stopped by a few sporadically here and there but not like I used to.  I have also read many but didn’t have energy to comment.  Sorry.